Husband thinks I'm boring
To sum up our relationship, we met in December of 09', fell in love while he was stationed in Japan for a year. He came home and married me during his leave and went back to Japan till Jan 11'. I gave up my whole life to move with him to Italy where his follow on tour was at. I thought life would be great.
We had just found a house in Italy and I found out I was pregnant. Ever since then things aren't the same. He said at first he didn't want to have sex because he was afraid of hurting the baby. Then he said it was hard to get aroused because I was starting to show and my new pregnant body didn't turn him on.
He has told me he wished I wasn't pregnant, because then he could leave me. He told me I was no fun to be around, and that it feels like we are just roommates.
I don't know what to do, I tried explaining to him that I don't feel good (because of pregnancy), I don't feel loved (lack of sex, no cuddling), and I am in a different country, I don't have any of my best friends here. I feel alone as I sit at home all day waiting for him to come home. When he get's home, he works out, eats dinner, and is on the computer till bed. Once in bed he throws a pillow over his face and goes to bed.
I don't want to lose our marriage, I still love him with all my heart. I don't need this extra stress though either. I am afraid that once I have this baby, he will divorce me and I will have to move back to the states and try to find a place to live, a job, and try to figure out custody of our child while he is still in Italy for 2 more years.
He said we should go to counseling, but he won't even talk to me about anything. I feel like we shouldn't be in this situation yet, since we have only been together for four months now. I feel like he is just giving up on us too soon. What's worse is I don't have anyone to talk to about this. My parents and friends were already warning me about moving out of the country with him, I can't tell them what's going on without the "I told you so". I need help, every time I bring it up to him, he always puts the blame on me, he never takes responsibility for anything.
He is a good guy, and when things were good, I swear I was in a fairy tale. I just want that feeling back.
Any suggestions on what to do?