04-24-2011, 02:42 PM
Join Date: Apr 2011
| | Moving Forward..
I have been with someone for over 3 years now. Overall, we have had a great relationship, and with both of us in our mid-twenties...it is a relationship that I hope will be permanent.
The one thing I wanted to bring up, is some dishonest, and outright wrong activities that I did.
For a long time (long before the relationship) I have dealt with depression and stress in the wrong way. I have gotten down on myself, our relationship, and have done stupid things.
Most recently, my girlfriend found out about me talking to a dominant cam girl online. The thing is, I have done this a few times in the past as well...and we have talked about it before. It would only happen after not seeing her for a while, then coming home from work and drinking. I haven't done it very much at all, literally only a few times.
I never physically cheated on her, nor would I ever. But I have betrayed her trust in some ways. At first I might of just passed it off as equal to watching porn or just being in a fantasy type of situation...but its not. After our most recent situation with this, we finally spent some time apart. I was upset that we had to do this, but now I realize why we did.
I have come to realize that I need to deal with the stresses of my job, my life in general, and not get down on myself (and stop drinking too much!). Last night, we went out to eat and I stayed with her for the night...it felt like the world was right again.
I honestly feel like I am ready to move forward, but hope that she can fully trust me again. We are going to seek counseling to try and help.
I'm just curious as to if anybody else on this forum has dealt with something similar. Our relationship is extremely important to me, and I want it to work. Any advice would be helpful. Thanks!