Nynaeve3 - Not sure if you are a woman or a man asking this question.
I personally am not even that 'wonderful" with kids, meaning I have NO desire to be a teacher or work with little kids at all. I was also never the type to go "oohhh look at that little baby & rush over & ask to hold him or her". I didn't grow up with babies around me either being an only child. BUT I always envied my friends with big families, the closeness AND the chaos.
Maybe I watched too many episodes of "The Waltons" in my youth or something, but I ALWAYS KNEW, had that insatiable desire for my own children
Having a little peice of yourself & your other half, it is such a wonder, seeing yourself in them as they grow. Pure amazement & beauty. Even with the dirty diapers & throw up on your shoulder. Being able to shape & mold & inspire another human being, a chip off the old block. What can compare to this? There are many JOYS in this life, this IS one of the greatest
The closest thing to unconditional love you will ever experience in this life.
I have 6, they are all so very different in personality. Each one brings his or her own special JOY--and irritations. I sometimes worry how I will handle the Empty nest syndrome!
Yes, when that BABY LUST comes upon you, you will KNOW, it will speak to you, from the depths of your being. Many a woman has yearned to be a Mother, your heart will ache if this is what you want & can't acheive it. If you feel "nothing" right now either way, you are not there.
When it comes, be sure to start a "family journal
" so you can record all the sweet / crazy /outrageous things they do & say. I started a little late in life but my oh my, the funny stories to tell someday to our grandchildren.
Memories like these, irreplaceable. I will know at the end of my life I did a good thing - choosing to have my children. At least I feel this way NOW.