05-10-2011, 05:10 AM
Join Date: May 2011
| | Doubting I even want a relationship
Lately I've been feeling like I don't even want to be with my gf much less anyone else.
Things with us have been very rushed, moved in after 1 month, got an apartment after 6 months, a puppy right after. All the while her not having trust in me. On top of that her constantly asking when I will ask her to marry her. About 3 months in I told her to never ever ask me that again, and when I am ready I will ask, if she wasn't willing to wait then she could leave.
The sad part about this, its very close to how my relationship was before her, the one before that and the one before that one as well. Either I must really suck at picking the right one, or its really like this. Any girl I feel love towards will be this much work.
So back to the true reason I'm asking for help. I am not very happy with my ... outcome? I am perfectly fine with my job IF I can come home to do what I love. However I come home to washing dishes, picking up dog ****, washing clothing, and making dinner. While my gf has a seasonal part time job, uses the money for her "business" and I am shafted with the bills and no time to myself. I feel cheated. The hours she is gone I enjoy to much, I wished I had more.
So I am left with the decision. Tell her to go, or shape up. But i feel like its just easier to tell her to go. :\ any thoughts?