05-21-2011, 08:06 AM
Join Date: May 2011
| | Advice please. Feeling Isolated and up against it!
I will try to keep this short and to the point, but a lot going on.
My husband had a traumatic head injury two months ago. After almost losing him and after three weeks in a coma, he is starting to make progress. I have three children, am trying to keep my husbands business running(our only source of income)and most importantly monitoring and supporting my husbands care in a nursing home for the long road ahead.
Previous to the accident, my husband and I have struggled off and on over the last 18 years, mostly due to the outside influence of my inlaws.
My mother in law has always been very critical of me and manipulative. At times putting my husband and myself against eachother out of her jealousy. But oddly enough, I realize deep down this is the only way she knows how to be.
After her last bout of criticism and disgust towards me this week, I let loose 18 years of pent up emotion explode. Nothing I said wasnt true, part of me feels badly, only because I dont want anyone to hurt, but I also feel that she has never taken into consideration my feelings over the years and quite frankly, my focus at this point is for my husband, children and keeping myself sane. She says I am selfish. I have worked with her and my sister inlaw closely for my husbands care. Keeping everyone in the loop. But now, I am the ogre. My entire family is 2000 miles away. I am doing this all on my own and quite frankly, at times feel very alone.
I cant bring myself to apologize to his mother yet. Am I being selfish in feeling this way? Am I the ogre?