husband has bad temper and takes it out on me
I wonder if my husband is bipolar or if he just really actually doesnt like me. either that or hes just psycho. He treats me like crap for the whole day for no reason and the next hes my best friend and were all a family. On a bad day, as soon as i wake up he starts yelling at me, telling me whatever faults i have, then i cannot really say anything or he will just get so angry he freaks out. he knows he has an anger problem. Any fights we have are literally over NOTHING. and they are huge. He has no problem calling me a ***** even if i am just sitting there. my son who is only 5 has went up to family members and said that daddy yelled at mommy and was being mean to her and she was telling daddy to please stop. My 5 year old has also called me a ***** and has had anger problems which he obviously immitated from my husband. We had to stay at my familys house for a few days and my hub was in a bad mood bc he was bored. He kept snapping at me any time i talked, was irritated everytime i did anything, and would just treat me like crap. My family was very concerned that he was yelling at me to wake me up in the morning, pissed that he woke up first and that i need to get up. They watched as he would continue to make me sad and hurt my feelings and yell at me. They saw as i would ask him simple things like what he wanted to eat, bc i was going to get us some food, and he would snap at me and yell at me bc he was putting a shirt on my son and couldnt think of what he wants. So, after we stayed at my family's house for a couple days, my family were just surprised at how i was so calm and cool while he would snap at me all the time. they were concerned that im getting used to being talked down to. i saw that i was! so i told him that we were through, i couldnt take it any longer , i want to be able to say what i want to say and not be afraid that he will get mad and take it the wrong way, etc. that i wanted to be treated like i should be treated. he did beg for us to stay together, cried, and talked for a long time, however he wouldnt let me talk during our arguments,. as usual. he never does, i will say a few words and he will tell me to shut up. well, after that and knowing that i was really fed up and actually ready to leave him, he changed. but now he is started to get back to his old ways. today we got up and ran some errands and everytime i talked he acted like i was and idiot or annoying, basically anything i have to say is stupid. he goes to the gas station, gets everyone something to drink except me. we go to the bank and i take a minute to fill out my money order and he tells me "you know you can do that there", it really shouldnt matter. but he was getting pissed at anything he could. then hes whispering under his breath "*****" while he gets out of the car. i didnt do a thing to make him mad!! he says he loves me. he works in a job he hates to pay for our family, he wants to do all of these things in the future- getting a new car, buying a house.. but i dont know... i have kept us from both bc i dont know if we should get all tangled in that if we arent going to be together. he doesnt see it, how he treats me and talks to me. i dont know why he does it. I just want to have a happy family, but i might be working on holding on to something that just wont change.. i am so lost. for a few months he has been trying really hard to keep his cool and was doing good with it but has his off days. should i record him and show him how he sounds? or should i just give up on us? i just am so tired of trying to keep him from steaming up and freaking out. and why the hell should i be called names and be silenced?