Okay, So I know some of you will think this is a stupid question and I'm sure it is but I have to ask regardless. I have been best friends with my friend since childhood and he is everything to me. I had a rough stage in my life 7yrs ago I was addicted to cocaine and overdosed almost dying, He was there for me through it all he helped me change my ways and stay clean I couldn't have done it without him. I can tell him anything and we are almost everywhere together, If I decide to stay in his place I always sleep in his bed with him but we have never had sex, we just lay there talking or he'll stroke my face. We can get changed in front of each other and think nothing of it. Little things like if we are out with friends and I fall behind he will wait for me take my hand and hold it and keep me beside him. He always has my back and is there when I need him, whether he would be dating someone or not, He is protective of me and I love him to bits. I'm starting to fall for him, I have strong feelings for him but I don't want to act on them and risk losing him because cant imagine my life without him. Can you have a relationship with a male like this and not be with him?