Hi all,
I've been married to my husband for 5 months and been together for 7 years. We moved in together after we got married and it's been hell. I have been diagnosed with Tourette's Syndrome due to having a sudden onset of vocal tics in my adult life and currently on medication to help with this.
I am aware of the stress and difficulty it puts my husband through dealing with a wife with TS as it has been very hard on him. He was very supportive at the beginning of it all until the last month, he has told me he doesn't want to support me anymore and I either stop the TS or pack my bags and leave. He has become extremely verbally/physically abusive towards me calling names I never thought would be possible from someone who is meant to be your whole world. Before we got married he called me a stupid b***h a few times during arguments, now it has escalated badly.. I have been called the C-word, pig, dog, scum, freak., dumb, loser and that I don't make any money (even though I have a full time job and a good saver?) he has also told me numerous times he hates my guts and wants me to leave "his" house and get out his life that I have ruined. He has punched my arm, put his hand over my mouth to shut me up and pulled my hair during arguments.
I can never do anything right around the house, I don't clean to his standards, I don't load the dishwasher properly I don't stir the food I'm cooking on the stove correctly etc he constantly tells me my parents did not teach me anything about life.
I feel useless, not appreciated and worthless, I still love him and too scared to leave as this is my whole life and how can I start over?
I'm not perfect in any way shape or form and have my faults/ flaws but he blames me for his behaviour and doesn't see it as abuse? and that I make him say and do those things. I cannot reason with him at all and I don't think I ever will? I'm too embarrassed and afraid to talk to anybody about this so that's why I'm writing on here. I just need some advice without any judgements.
Many thanks for reading
I've been married to my husband for 5 months and been together for 7 years. We moved in together after we got married and it's been hell. I have been diagnosed with Tourette's Syndrome due to having a sudden onset of vocal tics in my adult life and currently on medication to help with this.
I am aware of the stress and difficulty it puts my husband through dealing with a wife with TS as it has been very hard on him. He was very supportive at the beginning of it all until the last month, he has told me he doesn't want to support me anymore and I either stop the TS or pack my bags and leave. He has become extremely verbally/physically abusive towards me calling names I never thought would be possible from someone who is meant to be your whole world. Before we got married he called me a stupid b***h a few times during arguments, now it has escalated badly.. I have been called the C-word, pig, dog, scum, freak., dumb, loser and that I don't make any money (even though I have a full time job and a good saver?) he has also told me numerous times he hates my guts and wants me to leave "his" house and get out his life that I have ruined. He has punched my arm, put his hand over my mouth to shut me up and pulled my hair during arguments.
I can never do anything right around the house, I don't clean to his standards, I don't load the dishwasher properly I don't stir the food I'm cooking on the stove correctly etc he constantly tells me my parents did not teach me anything about life.
I feel useless, not appreciated and worthless, I still love him and too scared to leave as this is my whole life and how can I start over?
I'm not perfect in any way shape or form and have my faults/ flaws but he blames me for his behaviour and doesn't see it as abuse? and that I make him say and do those things. I cannot reason with him at all and I don't think I ever will? I'm too embarrassed and afraid to talk to anybody about this so that's why I'm writing on here. I just need some advice without any judgements.
Many thanks for reading