Re: My Boyfriend Keeps Disappointing Me & We Are Having a Lot of Problems
quote: I had thought of him as family, however, starting a few months ago. I was hurt so deeply and badly by this; I felt rejected, abandoned, and taken advantage of. I told him later that I felt he didn't deserve me--that I felt like he devalued my contributions and my feelings. I told him, through tears, that he was the man I loved, the first man I had been with intimately, and the man I wanted to share my life with and have children with--and then to be informed of this, was absolutely ridiculous; insane! I felt like our relationship was now "unsealed" and "informal" again.
quote: After all that happened, I became a worse person. I became even more negative, thinking that I could never find the job I wanted, that there was no point trying, that "jobs" were methods of enslaving people into heartless, soulless, meaningless functions that enriched other people while deflating your hopes and dreams. I began working for myself, but I earn even less that way than when I worked for the private industry making $9/hr.
okay i tried my best on these quotes since i dont know how to properly quote them with this site.
i picked these 2 quotes because i felt a connection that you were unhappy due to a job and your former church. the anxious feeling of being trapped again now as you once were. perhaps the church influenced you so much that even now as you live with your relationship it's that fear of being trapped. a lot of it, i think, is interrelated that in the end you push it away so you dont have to deal with it anymore.
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