Re: Dating: I think I have stronger feelings - can it still work?
thought I'd post an update. Things have been progressing well and with each passing week I understand her more. I have now come to know that yes, she's quite an introvert. She has few people in her life and needs a lot of time to charge her batteries. The more I understand, the more I see how much of her energy she is focusing towards me at the moment and it makes me feel very much wanted in her life. It is also more clear to me that she has a strong motivation to move towards me and to get to know each other. She also has said that with time she's understanding me more and more. Silly of me not to think that this goes both ways. Somewhere in the future when we have known for a longer time, I have to ask her what things was she baffled about in me when we started seeing each other. ^_^
The slow pace in which things progress has done surprisingly good things for me as well. I've had much time to think about my feelings, my past relationships and hurts and to read about things I have had less understanding about than I before thought (I feel quite silly about how little I have understood about introverted people before, nor about how high my own energy level apparently is, ). I've also been socially more active than in a long, long time. Seen a lot of friends, and had many, good moments. Mainly to keep myself busy. It has done a lot of good for me too.
We have shared some intimate things,and she has told me things that I feel are private things and I feel that a deeper level of trust is building with time. My feelings for her are deepening and are still freaking me out. I haven't thought about another human being this much ever before, nor been so focused on getting to know just the person she is, or being so concerned about her well being and happiness. She's the first thing on my mind when I wake up and last thing I think of before falling asleep. These feelings are on this level new to me, and I am still uncomfortable with how uncontrollable they are, and still uncertain are my feelings on a healthy level. It's so hard to tell, because I haven't felt anything like this before. My friends keep telling me that everything sounds normal and like symptoms of falling for someone. Still lots of stuff process through, obviously.
Good thing is that the weather is getting warmer and my more active period of doing sports has started so I have a place where to channel all of my extra energy. At the moment I'm still deliberately keeping myself extra busy, doing my best to release as much of the energy within me into positive things as possible, while waiting for time to do it's thing. What feels very nice is that I've been able to enjoy the time we spend together more each passing week and feel much less anxiety and fear than before, though those two sill are a part of my life at the moment. So far, so good.
Last edited by Rainbow_Dazed; 04-07-2017 at 06:55 AM.