Re: Dating: I think I have stronger feelings - can it still work?
We saw three times last week and the weekend was again more quiet than the weekdays, as before. I kept myself busy and had a very nice weekend. Saw lots of friends, went out clubbing and danced my ass off. All good things.
We had talked about going for a lunch on Monday, and on Sunday evening I suggested a place for the lunch. She then told me that sheíd love to go there, but tomorrow is not good. The reason why was an very understandable one, but last week we talked about lunch on Monday and I felt let down for the last second cancellation of our plans. Mostly the thing that hurt me was that again I was unsure of her feelings toward me and of her level of interest in me, and I had really hard time reading her.
So, I did the only thing I knew to do in this situation and wrote her a long letter in which to sum it up briefly I told her exactly how I feel about her and that itíd be important for me to hear how she feels about me and what she thinks about us and the future. I told her what my most intimate hopes for the future are and asked do we have matching hopes and dreams for the future. And does she want to get to know me in hopes of figuring out if these hopes and dreams can happen between us or is her interest in me something different. And, I asked her that could we please in the future plan the times we see more carefully. That as a creature of structure, plans that change in the last minute are rough for me.
This morning she replied in her brief way that yes, the feelings are mutual and she wants the same kinds of things in her future. And that absolutely we can plan our meetings more carefully in the future.
It was nerve wrecking to send her that long message. I was absolutely unsure was the timing good for such an intimate, open letter, or was it too much too soon. But Iím relieved that I did it. Even more than I anticipated. It was very comforting the read her words and to know with certainty that her motivations are similar to mine. Sheís still an absolute mystery to me, but now my heart is (for the time being atleast) more at peace with letting time to do itís thing. And what I even less anticipated, after that short reply and those few words, my mind is much more ready go towards her in a more intimate level as well. Still, not in any hurry, but a step forward for me to dare go towards her a bit more.