So after eleven years, through the ups and downs, the young kid mistakes and screw ups and ignorances, my wife and I were on the road to a great life. Starting a new business, having a child and growing up and building a great life, we were on our way. Having though we both had "sewn our oats" we were climbing the ladder. My wife and I had truly gotten to that big spurt of second wind in our love for each other. With emotional nights apologizing after something in the past came up, long nights out on the blanket in the field star gazing and acting like we were 18 again, we were back into the full swing of renewed, insightful love. For the last several years, we had been making it a a special ordeal to keep the marriage a spicy, eventful endeavor. From great family outings and vacations, to Friday night date nights twice a month, to chasing each other around in the grocery store, slapping each other on the ass and giddily asking for more... every day, always smiles and laughter, having the greatest time with our daughter and new business.
One day we took her to the GP doctor over chest pains. Citalopram / Celexa was prescribed at 20mg claiming "Work Anxiety". Without ever asking for an echo or any other real tests, this was done and shoved to the side. One month goes by, feeling better, but chest pains still present. No longer being heavily affected by it, we carried on none-the-wiser. Three months goes by, I'm looking at a completely different person. From the way she ate, laughed and drank her coffee to the way she acted in bed... everything had become different. The scariest part? Watching her quite literally changing personalities inside a 5 minute span while in the car ride home from having an emotional "breakthrough" at the cemetery (where we talked) in 5 minutes, she became this horrible monster, removing her hand from mine again and claiming "Everything I just said, forget it! I dont' love you, what's wrong with you? Why would you believe that?" ... 4 minutes earlier she was begging me to forgive her and to help her not lose her family.
Present day: My ex wife, My father (lexapro, 7 months in, suddenly divorced my mother after 37 years), two of my high school friends, both affected the very same way, one lexapro, one paxil. A few others that I have met online. Not believing it, I searched high and low, scouring the internet to find all I can possibly meet / talk to... it wasn't long before I realized it was true. The most compelling evidence? Those who were affected, admitting that it was true and how it wrecked their lives. I have spoken to literally hundreds of people now who were either directly affected by this phenomena or indirectly, such as people in the family, friends and coworkers. People who were great workers, great bosses in their careers etc, suddenly acting out on wild ambitions etc, ruining their careers, ruining their marriages, ruining their friendships and ultimately their lives due to this issue with these medications.
Suddenly feeling disconnected.
Sometimes feeling gloomy for no reason, (the dark cloud)
Symptoms of Bi-Polar can set in, many, MANY times resulting in false-positives for Bi-Polar Disorder.
Sudden need for excitement, lots of times including infidelity, partying, behavior like a teen again... even gambling.
Thoughts of unworthyness or even suicidal thoughts.
Feeling anxious and needing to always be on the go...
Always needing that next bit of excitement, old hobbies die but always looking for the next, new "thing" (even people)
Becoming obsessed with things, especially if it's "new" (again, even with people, new attractive coworkers etc for example)
Up and down in behavior..
Loss of emotional responses to very emotional situations such as death of loved one not having an effect or strange effects
Making really bad decisions such as quitting a job or career without having one lined up, for example and when asked still says things like "No, things are great, I'm fine" but the person obviously is not working off of a plan of action or anything
.... etc. etc.
One of my scariest stories were told to me by Dr. Peter Breggin, where one of his patients who was changed mentally over Paxil, had everything to live for, was mildly having issues over a death of a loved one who was on Antidepressants commits suicide out of the blue... was into third week of a cold turky quitting of the pill because "life was perfect" and didn't need the meds.
If you or someone you know who has been taking an SSRI / Antidepressant or even meds such as Chantix, PLEASE do some research and do not hesitate to believe the damage that can be caused. I have neither the patience, funding nor time to make this my life work to spread the information I have regarding this issue, so I am typing this due to finding the time tonight. Anyone denying this, is either uninformed, unwilling to accept or just not willing to see the light. This data is there and it has been suppressed due to Big Pharma. Remember folks, medications come from chemist companies looking to make a buck and we all know that treating symptoms makes a whole lot more money than curing people.
Though I have spent years now on this subject, researching and digging deeper,
Never take some guy on the internet's word.... always do your own research and find out.
As the X-Files used to say, "The Truth is Out There".