Hey guys I am new here and want to introduce myself but aside from that a big thing happened whilst on holiday last night that I need advice on.
To cut a long story short I have been with my partner for 3 years and we are due to get married next August. This weekend we were on holiday with friends. Whilst a sunset stroll to the beach my partner decided to go for a dip and left his belongings with me and the gang went with. I was drunk and being overweight decided to instead of embarrass myself trying to get up the high sand hills I would beat them and meet them at the top. My car keys were in his shoes and the sunset went quite quickly leaving us in pitch black, it took 5 males to go and find them and my partner was cold wet and very angry. I then with another friend got lost in the dark and couldn't find the campsite. When I arrived back my partner heavily intoxicated as was I, was calling my every name under the sun. Dumb *****, lard a** and even fat cow. I was heart broken and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. My partner has never ever called me anything before and shocked me and the worst of it my friends heard. The argument and the name calling.
The morning after we didn't speak and I know he didn't know what to say. When we arrived home he broke down and had no excuse as to why he did it. He has never reacted in this way with anyone and I have never incountered it. He cried and said he would rather of died than to call me anything like that. He was angry but he understands I am heart broken and he was angry annoyed and upset.
I don't know what to do. He says he loves me with all my heart but how when he can break my heart with such cruel words. He can't stop being embarrassed and so not himself and upset.
I need guidance. I would understand if this was regular. As it would Be verbal nasty abuse. But what happened last night tore me apart. I don't know if I can marry this man I love anymore.
To cut a long story short I have been with my partner for 3 years and we are due to get married next August. This weekend we were on holiday with friends. Whilst a sunset stroll to the beach my partner decided to go for a dip and left his belongings with me and the gang went with. I was drunk and being overweight decided to instead of embarrass myself trying to get up the high sand hills I would beat them and meet them at the top. My car keys were in his shoes and the sunset went quite quickly leaving us in pitch black, it took 5 males to go and find them and my partner was cold wet and very angry. I then with another friend got lost in the dark and couldn't find the campsite. When I arrived back my partner heavily intoxicated as was I, was calling my every name under the sun. Dumb *****, lard a** and even fat cow. I was heart broken and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. My partner has never ever called me anything before and shocked me and the worst of it my friends heard. The argument and the name calling.
The morning after we didn't speak and I know he didn't know what to say. When we arrived home he broke down and had no excuse as to why he did it. He has never reacted in this way with anyone and I have never incountered it. He cried and said he would rather of died than to call me anything like that. He was angry but he understands I am heart broken and he was angry annoyed and upset.
I don't know what to do. He says he loves me with all my heart but how when he can break my heart with such cruel words. He can't stop being embarrassed and so not himself and upset.
I need guidance. I would understand if this was regular. As it would Be verbal nasty abuse. But what happened last night tore me apart. I don't know if I can marry this man I love anymore.