Anxiety and marriage
I am so lost and confused and scared out of my mind. Last June, I discovered that my husband of only 1.5 years was having an affair. It lasted March-June. When I found out, I asked him to leave and he did. We then went through the motions of seperation. In August, we decided to reconcile. We do counseling, I do alone counseling (I have general anxiety and have for years), and we reconnected and I got over the affair issue and things were great. The last month or two, all I feel is anxiety about the relationship. I love him-I think-I know I want to love him-and I want to feel OK. I keep telling myself that the anxiety will go away. I have analyzed the anxiety (probably shouldn't be), but I have, and I am not anxious about the affair-just the future and can we last and what if we have kids and do I really love him.....I talk to my psychologist about it, but I don't tell her all of it, because I don't want to hear her say then I should walk away. Because I don't want to walk away. I was wondering if anyone else on this sight has any advice or similiar stories, anythig to help me wrap my head around my feelings.