LemonLime

Good to hear you are in better spirits. If you get bad feelings again, call a friend or seek some professional help

Love Song

I start my new job next monday working from home as supervisor for customer service work at home agents. So I'll get to work and not have to find a baby sitter for my son. I'm so happy to have this job and a purpose in my family!!

eowyn

Good Luck with your new job!! You seemed to be pretty low in your first post. I was looking for some good stuff to send your way to generate some positive vibes. I like this documentary that I watch when I feel low. You might like it too. I couldn't find the free version online. This is just the first 20mins. You can find it on Netflix online streaming etc. Its called 'The Secret'. The Secret - First 20 mins - YouTube

Davi

How you failed!! You have tried your best and still trying. People failed when they stop trying. So, don't stop trying.

Love Song

Thank you Eowyn I will add it to my netflix.


Davi - I didn't stop trying. I start working soon thanks for the encouragement!! It means a lot.

Love Song

Also I am not giving up on my dream to be a singer. I will do whatever I can to make it. I just have to pursue it as a hobby right now and not a full time job because I wont have the time to pursue it full time while working. I don't know how far I'll go but I only have one life to live and I don't want my age to come in the way.

MY SON - I have learned that I have about 3 days out of the year where I think the worst of myself as a person and as a mother for what my son has to go through being disabled. This thread was started on one of those days. But all other days I am so happy to have my son in my life I barely think about his disability. Living with his disablity is just our normal way of life now.

For the record doctors don't know what causes his condition. Because of this on those 3 days of every year I blame myself. The what if's kill me on those days.

I am a great mother to my son. I know I said I wasn't in my first post but that isn't the truth. I was being to hard on myself. When I have those really horrible days 3 times a year my husband does more around the house. But every other day I am the best mom. I go above and beyond the call to make sure he has as normal and fulfilled life as possible. My son is one of the happiest kids I've ever seen. When we are in stores people often stop and look at him and smile and laugh because he is so lively and imaginative. I am so lucky to be his mom.


My MARRIAGE - My husband has shown some huge personal growth in the last few weeks. After years of dealing with his uncooperative nature in regards to working on our marriage he is now interested. And he is better at taking constructive criticism. I have great hope for our future if things continue to progress as they are which I believe they will.