Re: Did he ever really love me?
Im am deeply sorry that you are hurting in all of this.
Sadly, I have to agree with the everyone else whom has posted a response. You mentioned that you fell in love with him, but never that he fell in love with you. Truck driving is somewhat of a lonely business and that on top of dealing with divorce is probably the reason he allowed you to ride with him for two weeks.
As far as how he he could spend time with you and have sex with you, yet be deeply in love with his life; sometimes it takes people making choices that may not be appropiate in order for them to realize what they truly want. Its not right, but does tend to happen more often than not.
Again as previously mentioned by someone else, dont take what has happened as something is wrong with you, or that you arent loveable, its not the case.
Somewhere in the back of his mind there was the hope of reconciliation of his marriage. It didnt come when he expected to, but it did come. Treasure the time you spent together, but dont harp on it. Obviously there is something better coming your way, so free your mind of this situation so that you dont miss your next opprotunity.
Take everything one day at time, it will get better.