Not in love or sexually attracted to husband anymore
I'll try to be brief:
Together 9 years, married for 7. We both work full time, have two kids. I do 90% of everything for the kids, but he does work 10-15 hours more a week than I do.
We get along fine, but our 'love' is dead. For years I insisted that we needed to work on our connection, our closeness, our lack of communication. I read every book out there on the subject, I tried to be the best wife possible, I still look hot, no extra weight, I picked up his interests, I listened to radio therapists, and I even got us in to couples counseling ( but he could never make the sessions). I tried everything possible to get that closeness that I want. It never worked. He tries, but not hard enough. He does not and has never, put me first.
Now after many years of heartache, I find that I do not feel love for him. And I am not sexually attracted to him. We have great sex 1-2 times a week - I enjoy it, but I pretend that it's someone else. I know he still gets very aroused by me.
Something emotional has been missing for years...and now my body has responded but loosing attraction to him. It's been one year of this. I find myself becoming incredibly attracted to other men, the way I used to with him.
I don't know what to do. Do I keep waiting this out? Nothing is working.