My Sweehtheart

Dear Friends,

I am new to this website. But I really need valuable support from you all.

I am 27 years old married women. Before 4 years I got married & having 3 years old son.I had so many dreams before marriage. After my marriage I suffered lots of pains & injuries due to my husband.

My husband is a continuous drinker. He never cared me & my baby. I am working in one company with good job. What I am getting is enough to run my family. But my hubby doesn’t like to talk to me, don’t like to take me out, never allow me to share my feelings with him. He loves to drink, that’s his life. If I tried to discuss anything with him finally will finish in fight & I will be in pain with lots of injuries. He used to beat me like an animal. He never paid money for anything, I am the one taking care of my family.

He used to borrow from his friends, I am the one paying to them. He tortured me to take loan & clear all his dues, I did. His mom & he sold my 520 grams of my gold jewels, I tolerated. Still now doesn’t show interest on me. All of my colleagues & friends are saying that , I am looking beautiful. But my hubby never came close to me. I put all my effort to bring him to my side. I begged many times to talk to me & clear all the issues to lead a healthy married life. He used to see me like his servant. He never give respect to my feelings. I tried to commit suicide twice. I thought what is the use of living, that much I loved him.

My Cousin is the one supporting me in lots of ways. He is 12years elder than me. He is a nice person, I never see like a guy in my life. He is facing problem with his wife, she is the one torturing him.This is continuously happening for past 9 years. We used to discuss our life & sharing our thoughts to improve our healthy married life. Whenever I talked to him, I feel happy (he felt the same).I loved the way, he take care of me & my son. I am financially week due to my hubby dues. He is the one helping me financially & mentally.

We started to love each other before 15 days. I don’t know whether its good or bad. I feel happy whenever I talked to him. He is financially settled with nice job. He wants to marry me & he want to make my life as happy. He wants to give what I lost in my life. Before 10days he approached to my mom that, he is willing to marry me. He will take care of me & my child until his death. If the man is wealthy, it’s allowed in islam to marry another wife & he has to treat them equal. He is eligible for that. But my mom refused due to the society & public.I don’t know what to do…..we both are carzy.But he didn’t touch me.He said me that,One day I will touch you,that day you will be my wife. Our love blossomed due to over affection, what we both lost in our life.

Kindly help me, I cannot forget him. Can I keep this friendship as secret or not?

I am confused, please help me.

Thanks,

sinnister

You are being abused both physically and emotionally. I think you need to get out of your marriage and forget about your cousin...

You need to heal from the pain your current marriage has caused you before you jump into another relationship regardless of who it's with...

My Sweehtheart

Dear Sinnister,

Thanks for your response.

you are correct i was tortured by my hubby both physically & mentally.I feel relax whenever my cousin is talking to me.I was crazy on my husband,i never get anything from him especially love.My hubby is same like a rock,he never understand my feelings towards my love on him.

I was helpless,my heart expected someone to love me. I cant able to explain how my love grows towards my cousin.But he stole my heart in many ways.Its really hard for me to forget him.

Thanks,