Hello, Let me first thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Here is my story....
I met my husband 4 1/2 years ago and got married within a month. I always do that. Rush in. When I met him I had my oldest son and he had 2 other sons from a previous marriage. We both decided we didnt want anymore kids. We used to go out together ALLL the time. He invited friends over. We went out to drink, and sex was great! I was the freaky one
After being together for about 9 months, he started begging me to have a baby, and swore he would help me. I had a baby. During the delivary he went home to sleep
and came back right when it was about to be baby out time. I let it go. Now two years later, he hasnt helped me with the baby for ****! Besides that, he has taken up 2 new expensive hobbies, jeep crawling and hunting, for which has spent tons of money that we dont have, I end up recycling cans n ****, he is gone days at a time for hunting and jeeping. When i say something he comes at me with "get a better job so we wont struggle" He works 5 days a week, I work 2 because that 2 year old son we have has add and not alot of ppl like watching him including his father.Because of all that sex is so sexless, He lasts like 2 minutes and thats it. So it feels like a chore now, he doesnt care about my needs. Everything I was attracted to him for befor is gone. He no longer hangs out with me like he used to, "i dont like to drink" is what i hear, so wtf did u do it b4??? Everything is hunting or jeeping. He isnt cheating, I honestly dont think he can. To sum it up I am married to such a selfish man, I cant talk to him. What do i do?? I've been craving some attention and sexual satisfaction. But when he kisses me it erks me!! I swear!! I have so much anger and disappointment built in, what do i do?? am i wrong for feeling like this??