08-03-2012, 08:01 PM
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|  Sad & Pissed!
I want to start off by saying my hubby is a great guy...for the most part. He has his flaws. His devils like any man does, but still great. Lately though, I have been unsatisfied. I am 22 weeks pregnant, work full time (10 hr shifts 4/5 days a week) & have a love/hate relationship about going home. It seems to be the same thing on a daily basis. He is usually in the living room watching a movie or playing the xbox. Lets say once he starts he doesnt quit. He doesnt avoid me & constantly tells me he loves me, asks me how my day was, etc, but I still feel alone. I start cleaning just because I'm lonely & it keeps my mind off the fact that I'm alone (even though he has been home all day & couldnt wash a dish, but he can sure make more dirty ones. He does work but its only when work is available for him). Being pregnant & having to work long hours everyday, I usually get tired & its bedtime for me no later than 11 pm. I say good night (as he is playing his stupid game still & I get home around 6:30pm) He says 'okay love you babe. I'm gonna play a couple games & come to bed' I instantly get pissed off because I hear that every single night, but every morning I wake up alone; he sleeps on the couch. After his game ( at like 1, 2, or 3 am, he will put on a movie & pass out to that) As you can imagine, our sex life is pretty much non-existing. He finds it easier to just get himself off & when I walked into the room & saw him doing exactly that while I was 20 feet away in a different room, it crushed me. He didnt understand why. I had to explain to him that a lot of women, including myself, enjoy sex ("making love") with our husbands/boyfriends because its an emotional thing for us. It makes us feel better, wanted, loved, desired, close. He thinks its absolutely ridiculous that emotions are tied with sex. That guys only have sex just for the outcome; getting off...so why go through all the hassle of sex if you can just get yourself off in a shorter period of time. Him saying that made me feel like a complete idiot for EVER having sex with him, when he straight up said he never actually wants to have sex, he just does because he gets horny & I'm right next to him. He says that is how he has always been. Sex to him is pointless & you show your love through other actions (kissing, cuddling, little gifts, etc) which I can understand that....but I need sex! I need that emotional connection that I get from him. I'm hurt & mad. It's actually making me pull away from him. So I have been doing the only thing that I figured I could do. Be distant. He loves the kisses & the 'I love yous' & sitting next to one another & the phone calls from work. I stopped. I come home, play with my daughter, eat, bathe & go to the bedroom. No kisses, no hugs, very few words. He doesn't like it...but if he doesn't care how I feel, why the f*ck should I care about his feelings?!
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