08-18-2012, 08:44 PM
Join Date: Sep 2010
| | Acceptance
I'm posting this thread because a part of me feels a little frustrated right now.
Frustrated because we sat down to dinner and I wanted to tell my H all about this truly interesting (to me) idea I had today for how to write a section of this huge writing project I'm working on for this national organization I work for.
I wanted his interest, support, enthusiasm. A smile. Didn't get it. Got "You should finish your fish before it gets cold." What am I, six? He also interrupted a couple times and questioned a part of my idea, like "Really? That would work?"
I kept going on for a few minutes about my great idea, the subject matter, stayed chatty because I was excited, then just dropped it. But walked away feeling frustrated.
Anyway, my point is:
He is exhausted. He worked almost 10 hours today, and brought work home, which he's doing right now.
He also stopped at a farmer's market and got a bunch of produce because I mentioned I need to go to the farmer's market.
He also stopped at a restaurant and got me a brownie and vanilla ice cream because yesterday I mentioned I've been craving a brownie sundae.
As I write this, I feel my heart warming and filling with appreciation and love for him.
Yes, it bugs me that he really didn't give me what I wanted/needed in that moment--some positive response and support and interest for the girl who spent the whole day alone with a laptop :/ Yes, it bugs me that he didn't seem to "get" it.
Sometimes he does give me that. It's a valid need I have for conversation, sometimes deeper conversation, sometimes about the obscure topics I write about. But it can't be every time and I need to accept that, and accept the ways he does show love. If I don't, I'll drive myself crazy.
Posting here made me feel better.
Life is 10 percent what you make it, and 90 percent how you take it.
Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.