SUICIDE - The Ones Left Behind
I chose to put this thread here so more people could read it and respond. When someone commits suicide, it's their close friends, family, and loved ones who suffer the most. My sister's live in boyfriend got drunk one night and shot himself in the head right in front of her. She had to hold his brains in until help arrived.
He died a few hours later and ever since then, my sister has never been the same. It's like he took the best part of her with him (empathy, kindness, truthfullness, etc.) All of her good qualiies vanished and she is now one of the most self-centered, judgemental, and angry people I have ever met.
That was five years ago, she has another live in boyfriend, but she bosses him around, is cruel to him, she has grown into a 34 year old jerk I wouldn't want to be around if she weren't my sister. It's heartbreaking since she and I were PEAS AND CARROTS as Forrest Gump would say.
She also has the feeling that No One in the world has a right to be sad or bummed about something because what she went through was much worse, so everyone else is a weak pansy. When I went into a depression due to my jobless state and H's drinking problem, she wrote me a note saying that she is ashamed of me and used to look up to me but because I buckled under the weight of depression, I am weak and she has no tolerance for wimps.
So, have any of you experience this? Has someone close to you lost someone to suicide? Did their personalities change? Did they ever get over it? If you lost someone to suicide, did it change who you were? Do people who commit suicide take those closest with them?
Thanks in advance to anyone who responds.
The snake is notoriously tempting
But the snake is fair.
What is worse than not knowing?
To live or disappear?