Re: I regret getting married
I don't know what your vows were, but mine promised to be faithful, to always be sincere about taking care of her, to respect and to care for, no matter what.
Conspicuously, you say nothing much about the man you married. As this is all about you. You're focusing on you. No, not a criticism... But you saw him as an escape from something, I don't know what, and now that the bait worked, you're ready to switch...
I guess I have to ask... Is there some terrible reason you can't love him? I suspect he has clues that you've used him, and I suspect he wonders why you have certain aspects of your marriage that just don't seem right, but he married you, hasn't abused you, and I'd say loves you and committed to you.
Are you that cold inside that has no effect on your heart? My gawd, you have someone that loves you, gave you the ring and said "I do" and apparently has done, with all the women here talking about not finding a man who'll pull that trigger. And here you have one who gave you his name, makes love to you (we assume there's at least some sex.. or maybe he's here with a different alias, but I don't recognize the story), and does husband things to, for, and with you.
You have a love right in front of you, all but surrounding you. Can't you let any of it in? It sounds to me a little like you might have walled yourself off to a degree, made a "deal with the devil" so to speak.. But you say nothing of him being the devil or even being bad.
I hate to sound like I'm begging for him. But in this case, my heart breaks for him and his love hasn't seemed to have moved you an inch. Or has it?