Bad Choices, Ruin families!
Okay I want to start off here by saying yes i no i was wrong very wrong and probably could never make it right! I have been with the same wonderful guy for the past 7 years, we have a beautiful 3 yr old boy together. Last year I cheated on him and we decided to work through it, and we did, everything was going great until i did it again. I dont no what the hell i was thinking, i have messed up so bad again. im at risk of loosing my family and everything that comes with it. I want him to know how much i love him because i really do. i no you all are going to say YEA RIGHT, then why the heck did you do it again. To be honest and i no its not an excuse or anything but i was really drunk and hardly remember my actions. i know it happened tho, thats why i told my guy the very next day. he doesnt deserve this at all, he is great dad, man, lover, friend anyone can ask for. The Question is WHAT DO I DO TO MAKE IT BETTER??? We have talked long and hard and cried together for days. He doesnt want me to go, He says he loves me and he wants to work it out for our family. But i have no idea how i can make this up to him, if roles were reversed and he did this to me, i wouldnt be able to even look at him, and i dont understand why he still wants me around. ANY ADVICE ON HOW TO HANDLE THIS WOULD BE GREAT.
P.S. I KNOW I MESSED UP BIG TIME. 2 TIMES. IM A CRAPPY PERSON, HE DESERVES WAY BETTER THEN ME AND I KNOW THAT. I FEEL GUILTY STAYING HERE, LIKE I SHOULD BE KICKED OUT AND HURT JUST AS BAD AS I HURT HIM, BUT HE WANTS ME TO STAY. SO SHOULD I? IM AFRAID TO HURT HIM AGAIN. HE IS TO GREAT!