littlet09

As far as I can tell that on this site you can tell it all. So here it goes. My husband and I have been married for almost 20 years and have three children. We was in our twenties when we got married, within the first five years he started cheating on me, I didn't know it then, but he was with one of his best friends wife. this affair went on and off for about five years. Then he found someone else too cheat with another friends wife, this one went on for about two years. Yes i had clues but wasn't sure, I was busy with the children, twins born premature. and i worked a night shift job and he drove a truck, local. we rarely saw each other. I feel like that was part of our problem. He not only had those two, he had five more over the period of 10 years. I had one, it was only oral, i know that is still cheating, and it doesn't justify anything. well everything came out in the open for both of us, after a threesome weekend-my husband, another man, and me. we separated for a week and realized that we truly loved eachother and wanted to work it out, well now its been four years and things have slowly gone down hill. i work a public job again, and he works swing shifts, so we still dont have much time together. we argu about money, sex- the lack of. He wants to continue having threesome and play other sex games-out in public-half naked walking into a retail store and having sex in public places with everyone watching. I am no saint but i just dont feel right doing those things. If i change to please him, what is that doing to or saying about myself? any suggestion?