Re: Wren's New Year New Life New Thread
Well, I did something I am not sure I will or will not regret. Because I am having such a hard time finding a job in this town and also due to the hurt this house brings me, I again offered to let J buy me out of the deed to the house. He accepted.
I have mixed feelings because the truth is, and he will agree, this house is the embodiment of all my hard work. There is a connection to this home that J has never felt. And the idea that he will benefit from it and possibly bring another person into my home causes great sadness and anger in me.
But, I need to detach from him completely. And the mortgage is paid by his paycheck. Once I am detached financially, I feel I can finally say goodbye.
I am terrified because the heat is really on to find a job so I can find another home. Good news is I don't have a move out date but I don't want to rest on that fact.