So far my online dating has been a bust guys! I've been "winked" out and had emails but really no one has struck my interest. I'm not extremely picky but know what I want.
I do have to follow the advice that I don't have to be looking for a relationship just a date. It takes less pressure off.
So far everything is good. I'm not complaining. Just trying to fit in my life after work and all.
Last week I didn't work out once. I felt like I backtracked a bit and need to get on the wagon. That's one of the pieces that I need to fit in my life.
My ex is friendly in his emails. I guess it is sort of a relief that he his the divorce done. It is for me as well. It's a new world.
CW, sorry to hear that. But at least you've been winked at and are "out there". Got to keep on that wagon with working out. That is why I choose to do that 6 week program. It wasn't too long or too short and seemed doable and get me in a routine. Now in week 6 I am starting to look forward to working out -- makes me feel better. Heck and since the weather the past two Sundays has sucked -- no soccer -- I need it. Hoping this Sunday I can play.
I agree -- Wren give us updates on you.
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Kindness, Caring, Love and Understanding for Me, for Her and my son. Well not so much for Her anymore.
I've never been a fan of the gym. My friend and I are thinking that we may be taking a dance class called ZUMBA. This is supposed to be alot of fun and great exercise.
My mom and I had dinner tonight. She said she's worried about me. I told her that I was better than 99% of the people. I meant it!
I think if I could take dance classes at a gym, I would stick with it. Working out bores me. And I am just not motivated enough for self care these days. I'm so ready for Spring.
Ash: Have you taken it? My coworker is addicted. She thinks the cure for world peace=Zumba; to solve hunger=Zumba. We joke with her that she thinks it will solve all of our problems.
Wren: Get out there as much as possible....maybe a dance class. Get the body moving!
I am so proud of you guys. We have come along ways.
By the way....My evenings are getting more exciting. I'm not going to say much here. But I wanted to let you all know...it's good being a "schoolgirl!"
Hmmm. I am still grieving. I know this as the proof comes in small doses.
A song, from Taylor Swift, made me think of the old day.....pre pre marriage. It's called "15." It made me think about the intensity of first love. Of course, I cried softly in the car....my D was present.
I mention these things as many think I am doing perfect and strong and moving forward. I'm not perfect. Today, I feel melancholy. The good outnumber the bad, at this point.
Sorry CW, it takes a long time to fully recover, up to 5 or more years in some cases.
My counselor said that we should look for one good day and then two good days and then three good days...... until we have a lot of good days. She also said that every once in a while we will go to a dark place, and something strange may even trigger it, but that's just normal. It's good you are at a point where you have more good days than bad days.
I just want to be as strong as you are someday- you are an inspiration !
hey corpus,
music can hit you right where it hurts and sometimes it is good to let it out..your daughter is old to enough to begin to understand your grief - remember she is grieving too - another version but still grief ....
I would be so more worried about you if you weren't experiencing this as well as feeling ok - none of us is perfect and we don't expect you to be ..sending you lots of love
i dont even turn the radio on as of late! it gets me every time! i dont care tho cause im always in the car, and sometimes ill listen and have a good old sob fest to let it all out!
some may say it is punishing myself...it always makes me feel better though!
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loving mother and devoted wife, I will endure this pain with the faith, hope and love i have for my family!
I hear you guys! I just wish that after 13 months I could stop crying. I cry because I am hurt or lonely or exhausted emotionally or out of sheer frustration. It sucks.