Re: Should I send a letter???
I find it that when I write to him I feel somewhat better. I keep a journal and I write in it each night and I label each entry day 1, day 2 day 3 etc... and I basically write as if I was talking to him. I tell him how I feel and how much I miss him and how I wish I knew what he was thinking, I tell him about my day, dreams I had of him last night and so on. I dream of him every single night it is always about him. It is just for my personal view and I could show him but I don't think I ever will.
I also write to him letters apologizing for my previous behavior and I ask him for forgiveness. I don't know if I will ever show these letters to him because I have basically told him that already and I know the answer. I am going to give him time and more time, and talk to him about it. Until he comes with the divorce papers and I doubt he will anytime soon, I will not give up on us, as hard it feels and as much as it hurts.
Keep writing to yourself and it might help you cope with some of the pain. I find it theraputic.