Re: My journal-Making it about me now
Paperwork completed-check. H is going to drop it off sometime this week.
Conversations about how to split debt and what support will look like-check. Nothing written done yet, but that's the next step. So far, fair and civil.
First awkward family gathering since we delivered the news-check. Horrible day for me, but his family showed much love and support, which I am blessed to have. I understand that in many situations, this fades over time, but to have it at this moment is a treasure to me.
So, now I am more aggressively looking for a place. I am going to start contacting management companies to see if I can get a heads up for Sept/Oct places in my price range. I really need to start spending some time packing and organizing. Work-wise, this is a really bad time for me to move, so I need to do anything I can to make it easier.
H is still being very kind and affectionate. He admits that it's hard to see me hurting, so he wants to comfort me. I've told him that it is hurting me more, so we are figuring out our space. It's a tough thing to do, but Arendt, you are spot on. I can't let him hurt me this way anymore. I really can't move yet, but we can create some distance in other ways.
So, I guess that's all...just plugging along.