03-08-2011, 07:49 PM
Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: Southern Cali
| | Was hoping that I wouldn't have to post in this section
Well here I am. I'm not going to link to the thread about all the details unless you guys want them. But basically I found out that my wife was talking to someone else. We have been in counseling for quite some time and she has been talking to him since even before that. I couldn't understand why she kept saying that she didn't want to put any effort into our marriage, now I know.
I decided that my marriage and kids are more important than anything and wanted to fix whatever problems we have. She decided that she doesn't and wants a divorce so here I am.
I quit working so that I can go to school full time. So I am currently in respiratory therapy school with 12 months left. Now I need to get a job and find a place to live. I have to pay for my carnote and regular expenses. I am doing really well in school with an "A" average. I know that I need to continue with school so that I can build the type of life that I need. But I'm having a hard time focusing.
In addition to that, this is a hard program. I usually study 6-8 hours every day. I'm going to have to work full time in order to make sure that I can function financially.
I don't know that I wanted anything from posting this other than to have someone to talk to. I'm all alone and extremely hurt. I feel just devastated. I don't get to tuck my kids in and she does. She has a job, our house, and all that she needs. I am the one that has to start over. Every night when I put our 3 year old to bed, I read him a story. Now I don't get to do that. When I come home, it will be an empty house. I have nothing to take my mind off of this pain.
When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me".