Not really reconciled not really separated.I'm in such a weird place.I feel like i can't talk about us anymore on here because I understand that you guys are going through a lot more than me now, but I still have big struggles.
I feel like i got so close to all of you that even if there was a place for people like me I don't want to go.
I guess we can make a small group for these of us who kind of reconciled but still struggle ...me,Dan,anx...not sure if there was anybody else.
Like today i feel so unsure of everything.He called ,said he's going to look for houses again...didn't say ,""hey do you want to help"" that'll be his usual. He doesn't want me to look,i don't know if he wants to take control...which is really weird or just knows that i'll find a house for next month and he desperately wants to postpone the move because he still needs time for himself.
I didn't say anything.... i just sent him an Email telling him that i don't care what kind of house he is getting (very unusual of me) that I only need a small space for photography + Him and the kids and that's it.
On the phone he keeps saying he wants to be in shape for me(he is in good shape,he's always been) but i don't understand why is this so important to him,I told him that he looks great and if he wants to work out more to do it for himself not for me,i told him that I've always liked the way he looks...
There is still this awkward moments on the phone when there is so much to be said but you can't say it,it's hard because we both keep saying a lot "so-o-o-o" and there is an awkward silence...and i keep trying to think of something to say that is not related to our relationship. I don't know how we are going to keep talking like that until the end of next month let alone if he wants to extend with one more month.
So yeah there are little things like these that bother me highly and I still feel lonely because I'm still not with him.Can't see him ,can't touch him,hug him....It's such a weird place for me...and it's still hard...not as hard as before but still...
Sorry for my rant,hope you all understand what I'm trying to say.
__________________ H. and I married since 2001.Two kids 5 and 1
H. separated from me onDec. 1st 2010Reconciled March 2nd 2011 . April 24th ,he told me he's been having an affair May 11 the day he asked for divorce June28th divorce papers were served to me
Actually you are in limbo. You are HOPING and WAITING to reconcile but it hasn't happened yet. I can see how this would be very frustrating. I think you just have to take one day at a time and live your life and wait. Not much else you can do. Your H wants to be with you, which is a good thing, so don't dwell. Enjoy that and have a good time in the meantime.
As it stands now, you are still separated. So if you like it here, then stay and hang with us who are still here, doing what we do.
I hereby give you permission to stay here until circumstances change for the better! There you go. Now kiss my ring!
__________________ D DAY: Monday, April 1, 2013 And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
And find the strength you've had inside all along
'Cause life starts now
__________________ H. and I married since 2001.Two kids 5 and 1
H. separated from me onDec. 1st 2010Reconciled March 2nd 2011 . April 24th ,he told me he's been having an affair May 11 the day he asked for divorce June28th divorce papers were served to me
Not really reconciled not really separated.I'm in such a weird place.I feel like i can't talk about us anymore on here because I understand that you guys are going through a lot more than me now, but I still have big struggles.
Don't be silly, you are part of the family here :-)
I just looked at the reconciliation forum,it's dead.People are busy reconciling lol .I will not survive in there...sorry not going anywhere even if you want to kick me out of here.
__________________ H. and I married since 2001.Two kids 5 and 1
H. separated from me onDec. 1st 2010Reconciled March 2nd 2011 . April 24th ,he told me he's been having an affair May 11 the day he asked for divorce June28th divorce papers were served to me
I just looked at the reconciliation forum,it's dead.People are busy reconciling lol .I will not survive in there...sorry not going anywhere even if you want to kick me out of here.
Seriously girl, never feel like you can't talk! Just because our lives are in Rack and Ruin.. *wails and sobs into her pillow* we don't stop caring! Heck you guys that R give us hope!
Don't go anywhere else, I think we have built.. an albeit.. strange little community here.. and whether we R, get a D, or join Cranks Harem.. we still care!!
As for what is going on with your H and what he is going through, there's no way we can answer we can speculate, but that would be unfair to do so, the only one that can give you the answers you want is him..
He has had a change around from the person he was before, that's a start, like me, I think we expect too much too soon
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
Don't go anywhere else, I think we have built.. an albeit.. strange little community here.. and whether we R, get a D, or join Cranks Harem.. we still care!!
Are you TRYING to kill poor Crank??!!
I was thinking how strange it must be for you V. You really are in limbo. But you have to try to stay positive & just get ready for being back together in May. It seems like he has wised up after losing his mind for a bit. Maybe now things will be way better than ever before.
__________________ D DAY: Monday, April 1, 2013 And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
And find the strength you've had inside all along
'Cause life starts now
Last edited by Freak On a Leash; 03-18-2011 at 07:01 AM.
__________________ D DAY: Monday, April 1, 2013 And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
And find the strength you've had inside all along
'Cause life starts now
__________________ D DAY: Monday, April 1, 2013 And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
And find the strength you've had inside all along
'Cause life starts now
__________________ D DAY: Monday, April 1, 2013 And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
And find the strength you've had inside all along
'Cause life starts now
Where do I belong now.. 
