See I always mean what Jelly says, I'm just verbose about it.
LOL. Maybe we have the same brain with different words.
Today I was walking in the hallway at work and started smiling at the thought that one day I am going to have VERY good sex with someone who I probably haven't met yet. LOL. And while I am nowhere NEAR that happening yet, it made me smile and feel kind of silly--like a 16 yr old in a candy shop!
Well he called the kids, had a quite a long chat with them.
My youngest handed me the phone and I did the "Ok, all done, bye"
Cept today he seemed to want to talk to me, he asked me how the kids were doing (as they had a tummy upset) I said they were fine and they'd be back at school tomorrow. I attempted to say good bye again, he went quiet for a few seconds then said "Oh ok, have a good evening" And I hung up..
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
LOL. Maybe we have the same brain with different words.
Today I was walking in the hallway at work and started smiling at the thought that one day I am going to have VERY good sex with someone who I probably haven't met yet. LOL. And while I am nowhere NEAR that happening yet, it made me smile and feel kind of silly--like a 16 yr old in a candy shop!
Haha that is great! I am not quite there yet myself, not even mentally. My wife was my first and only. She always said it was odd because I was so confident but she was the one with experience lol. Age does give a slight edge there I guess.
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
I'm gonna be 37... I still like to think it could happen... sex might be nice...
then the whole with who question comes to mind and ... not ready lol
Yesterday early he got up and went in to do intake for an abusers program, got accepted and has insurance in place for full coverage. I tel him good job. I actually think he is going to do this...
then...
last night he showed that we are still running the same 3-4 day loop.
My dumb a$$ talked on the phone with him when he called and listened to way too much of his feelings on entitlement to a portion of my rent money. He will pay me back next check. My rent comes out of my disabled sons SSI that he feels he is entitled to a portion of since it was part of our families income and he was counting on it. I am being clearly unreasonable he says. He threatens to give up and walk away but this time I told him that he should. I can't take that threat anymore.
I am not asking to be rich. I did not spend his money. I am not living large here. We addressed the money issue and I took it on by the horns (was proud of me for that) I told him flat out that his always quitting jobs and never striving to do better than $10 and hour but wanting to be sole provider and then reckless spending. All not an option anymore, our finances are legally split and we are done. Fair shares are handed out in the beginning and there is no asking for more from the other. I never have asked but figured I would give him that.
We left the call on a very bad not with him saying he was done, didn't want to wait for me to say it he wanted to be the one to say we are done. I said ok bye and hung up. I went to bed (2 freaking am!) he called and texted from 3:30-4:30 and I did not answer. I silenced the one call so as not to be disturbed and the texts didn't wake me until 8:30. I replied in a fog as I woke. He was ... of course... taking it all back. Then I realized that he is now finally sleeping. He will wake in a few hours...
Dear Stupid thickheaded spaz that I am ashamed to call my Husband..
I wanted to tell you about all the funny things your children have been upto.. Livvy can type her whole name out on the computer, they've been telling me jokes this afternoon, I love that our 4 year old thinks she is hilarious, with her made up jokes, you're missing out on all of this, all because you are selfish. Our 3 amazing children are growing up so fast. One day, you're going to realise just how much you've missed and I hope that you hate yourself.
One day our children may call someone else Dad, have you ever thought about that? They may love someone else, in the way that they should love you and only you, and this is all because of what?
I wish I knew...
Good luck with your fabulous new life, but one thing is for certain, it will never ever be as good as mine.
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
I'm going to be 37 next week and am in the middle of working out the finances so that we can file for divorce...I absolutely refuse to believe that there isn't someone out there! If I thought that for a second, I'd stay and be roommates with my husband forever, believe me! Living together is the one thing we're good at in all of this...
Oh--and my little wise-a$$, but very true advice for the day--you know, your phone has a little red button on the right. Turns the whole darn thing off and you don't have to deal with any phone calls or texts or anything until you feel like it And anytime you want/need to use the phone, you can just push the green button on the other side and it's all ready to go again! No middle of the night calls, texts, or anything. When you're done, phone's off and you're done!
You know you miss my approach to these things, don't you??!!??
I sure do And I swear I heard you when I silenced it at 4am. He is going to crash and burn and it makes me sad but it does kinda prove my point that I have been saving his butt for better than a decade.
I can't save him. I can only save myself *que old stabbing westward songs lol*
I can save the kids. we can start on a path of meger living but the kid of meger that has security in where dinner will come from and the rent being paid, in full, on time. That is not a big magic thing, normal people do it all the time. I am not mean or cruel to expect this.
Maybe the threat of possible jail if he quits this job will be enough to get him to keep it. Just caring for his family was never enough...
So I slid but I am okay. None is what he expected... wtf?!? of course it isn't! He seemingly expected us to keep going like this forever. It was good for him.
Oh--and my little wise-a$$, but very true advice for the day--you know, your phone has a little red button on the right. Turns the whole darn thing off and you don't have to deal with any phone calls or texts or anything until you feel like it And anytime you want/need to use the phone, you can just push the green button on the other side and it's all ready to go again! No middle of the night calls, texts, or anything. When you're done, phone's off and you're done!
You know you miss my approach to these things, don't you??!!??
Re: The LC/NC Thread.. 
Maybe we have the same brain with different words.
