I sure do And I swear I heard you when I silenced it at 4am. He is going to crash and burn and it makes me sad but it does kinda prove my point that I have been saving his butt for better than a decade.
I can't save him. I can only save myself *que old stabbing westward songs lol*
I can save the kids. we can start on a path of meger living but the kid of meger that has security in where dinner will come from and the rent being paid, in full, on time. That is not a big magic thing, normal people do it all the time. I am not mean or cruel to expect this.
Maybe the threat of possible jail if he quits this job will be enough to get him to keep it. Just caring for his family was never enough...
So I slid but I am okay. None is what he expected... wtf?!? of course it isn't! He seemingly expected us to keep going like this forever. It was good for him.
Oh but it WAS magic, doncha know?!? He said "jump" and everybody did. He worked...or didn't and yet the roof didn't disappear, food landed in front of him and he still got toys! Poof! Magic, I tells ya!!
Now he gets to find out that you were the Wizard all along....
you must be reading here, because after writing about you saying good bye where you used to just walk out without a word, you stopped saying good bye again....
So I wanted to say....thank you so much for doing all these things for me today, you were a great help !!!!
You don't have to read here anymore, cause I'm not going to write anymore....
Don't get any answers to my questions anyway .....
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
Yes I am old and I don't care! I'm still good... I could totally play well in the 40yr old male crowd... and they have just hit they age where they slow down a bit and do it right so I am good ... someday... I hope... lol
I feel ya on that one AmI... I have 3 too and I have given birth to 7... my body and soul have paid for all that life. I feel old lol but I feel GOOD. I have done good things. I am a good person. I made people... top that
I let H rope me into a text message war. He's PISSED that I emailed the ex gf's ex-husband. PISSED! Says I crossed a line, pushed him to the breaking point, and now the camel's back is broken. I'm hurting bad today. It's hard to have any hope that he'll snap out of this and realize what he's doing to me. He is so heartless and spineless at the moment. Says he kind of read my letter but it didn't seem real because it was written at the same time I was digging and snooping. I point out the fact that I snoop and dig because he is putting her needs before me. His big argument yesterday was that I made him look like a fool. And he had to answer questions from her and that I drag other people into this. He was such an @ss. I don't deserve this. At all.
He makes me beat myself up over my actions and they are all justified.
Shianne, I would of had 6 I feel old and tired and haggard and cranky and sore and... yeah you get the idea lol
I have a squishy belly c-section scar from all 3 bubbas, 2 scars on my left breast from cancer and now I have shingles, but hey I am still here, I am still looking after my gorgeous kids, on my own... he see's them for a few hours once a week... not even this weekend..
He doesn't have a clue whats going on with me, and I am not telling him anything. I am a good person too, far too good for him thats for sure.
I pray that one day in the not too distant future I can turn around and say "You've done us a favour" and I pray to everything holy that he is a miserable S.O.B who looks back with so much regret it kills him.
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
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Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
Re: The LC/NC Thread.. 
And I swear I heard you when I silenced it at 4am. He is going to crash and burn and it makes me sad but it does kinda prove my point that I have been saving his butt for better than a decade. 
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