Re: I still love my wife and want her back
Nice guy is right. I am so sorry you two have been through so much in your young lives. I am glad you are in counseling for your PTSD. I go for depression, and I am coming to accept that it is a disease, not my weakness. If she has bi-polar and isn't getting treatment, you need to talk that over with your counselor and maybe your lawyer. This isn't about keeping her happy, it's about keeping your little one safe. That has to be your priority. I know your vows said, "In sickness and in health," and it sounds like you want to make good on your word. Problem is, you can't control her. Maybe ask your counselor how you can do an intervention with family and friends to get her to go for help for bi-polar. Just an idea. They do that with alcoholics and other disorders. Perhaps if she knew that family members don't blame her for being mentally ill, she might open to the idea? Does she blame you for PTSD, or recognize that you have it? So much on your plate. Praying for you and her. And little guy. Hang in there, but don't blame yourself. And no suicide. Absolutely off the table. Keep writing. Thank you for serving our country. Thank you for being there for your son when your wife either won't or can't. You are way too important. We can't lose you. Not kidding.