Without getting into too much detail we also talked about how our biggest issue with our marriage is that I want kids and she doesnt. She told me that for a while now she see's herself leaving abroad after med school is over with and practicing out of the country to help less fortunate people.
It's called running away. I mean, this is a great and lofty goal, but you'd think you would have heard about it before now if it was really a life dream of hers, right?
She's had these thougts for a while now and that was one of the main issues between us that finally led to her wanting to leave our marriage. She couldnt see our future working while she had that "passion" of working abroad in mind.
Is this news to you?
She said she doesnt want to keep living a lie like everything is okay with our marriage when deep in her heart she knows that she wants to leave the country after school and she knows that is not somethign I would be willing to consider.
Then she should be willing to sign an agreement letting you out as gracefully as possible and be very, very happy for you to be inserting your boy bits into someone else's girl bits.
This one really hurt. She told me that since we've been separated she's felt a weight lifted off her shoulders. She says she feels like she is finally living the way she feels she is supposed to live.
A life free of accountability and responsibility always feels free.
Do you remember what summer vacation felt like in high school?
That's the way she feels right now.
She then talks about how sad she is because she doesnt want to lose me as a best friend. WTF!!! She actually thinks that we should be able to be best friends during and after all this?? Maybe some day but right now I dont see that happening.
My ex and I said the same things, man. For me, it was out of fear. For her, it was $.
Funny how we stopped being friends when I stopped paying money into our joint account, gave her everything to get her out of my life, and started sleeping with someone else.