Re: Feel Like I Don't Exist
stair, caught & clinging: Aye aye aye, he is 65 yrs old. I don't think it is a midlife but perhaps a bucket crisis?
He is just able to compartmentalize superbly because in reality he doesn't face ANY difficult feelings. Would shut me off after a while, he can't handle it if it is not about him.
Remember, we may not exist to them but WE EXIST! We do. He is always asking about my other ex (23 yrs married that time and lives in same town) or whether the people in my 12 step program get married (of course and successfully/fail just like the other human beings). He inquires not so subtly what the chances are that I am going to have ltr with someone else.
Too strange. Yes I am partially to blame, and here's the sin I made a joke about the ED, I didn't want him to feel bad, I wanted him to know it was not a big deal and there are drugs one can take to fix this very thing, but that was the WRONG emotion and I didn't know that and he will NOT forgive me even though I have asked a few times and explained but he won't. He now is blaming me for that.
And so there it is: the skeleton in the closet. BFD that is not what being a man is about but evidently not to him and that is why all of this went down. But he won't admit that, he makes up 3 episodes of pure BS that that is the reason. He won't face the truth so he wrecked our marriage over his D_CK.