10-30-2008, 08:50 PM
Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: Calgary Alberta Canada
| | Am I just fooling myself
ok so he left almost a month ago, he has been coming over less and less and going to the neighbours less and less. He found his own appartment and seems to have bought everything he needs.
I feel like I am running on ice and he is on fire and melting it. I want him to come over but I don't I want him at the neighbours but I don't.
I am going to see him this Saturday and I am not sure what is going to happen. We are both going to the same party. He made sure I had an invite, and it you guessed it a Halloween party. I am dressing is something sexy something I would not normally do, but I have lost 15lbs this month, so I feel better about myself. I even had my hair cut into something really exciting instead of just the "same old same old".
So am I just fooling myself that he will see what he is missing, and start to come around more... do I want him around more the first part of me says yes and then when I think about it can I hurt more every time he leaves.
Anyway just needed to get some thoughts out of my head.
Talk to you all soon