Originally Posted by brighterlight
hah, so did I from the post title.
Good for you for going out!
haha nope. But hopefully with time!
Well its been 2 weeks since I wrote that post above and it seems like I have made great strides since then. I still have good days and bad days but right now I am really focused on getting my life back. It still hurts but I've turned my attention to the positive things in my life right now.
Once I clued in that crying and moping around was not doing anything to make my life better, I realized I had the power to make my life whatever I wanted it to be. I made the decision to start living my life for me. A pathetic excuse for a man is not going to determine my outcome in life, that would be a crime - and here I was about to let him get away with it! Not anymore.
I went out and got a new job that starts on Monday, and I'm going back to school this fall. I'll be moving to a new city during the week for school and traveling back home on weekends. I'm a little nervous about this, but I still have almost 2 months before the move and I will be home for weekends anyway. I am looking forward to going back to school, getting involved with activities and maybe even making new friends. Among this I have started hanging out at family dinners/functions, exercising, shopping, looking for a new vehicle, reading, basically anything to keep myself occupied.
I still have to push myself to go out and about but at least I am, and I am proud of myself for doing it! When I feel down I pick myself back up to know that things are getting better, and will only continue to get better if I keep this mentality up. I am looking forward to the future.
Speaking of it, if the future includes stbx it does, and if it doesn't, it doesn't!
I am not waiting around for him or letting him play any part in the choices I make from this point on.
Just me me me me me. lol.