I don't want to address each of you individually so I'll do my best so answer the unknown here. Yes, I still have access to OUR bank account. I use it rarely. I am working as an office manager for my cousins body shop. My family has helped me tremendously. Yes, he did ask me to leave. I had initially agreed it was for the best and a few days had passed and I told him I did not want to go, as I couldn't understand how we could fix anything if I did so. I have not been back to Nevada since I left in January.
, what I want right now that is possible is to just try and be as happy as I can. I'm so tired of crying. Every time he'd come up for a visit I of course being so stinking weak and naive, wanted to be intimate with him because I miss him and love him terribly and every time he'd leave and go back to Nevada we'd fight terribly. It has gotten to the point where we barely speak. I mean like once a week we might speak, and it's just a few words. He doesn't contact me except to ask when he can call our daughter. That is it.
...yes I had no where else to go but back to Montana. I have no family anywhere else. I lived in Nevada with my husband because I am his wife and I of course go where he goes. He is an engineer and has absolutely no intentions of leaving his job, even though before I left to come to Montana he told me after we get this all sorted out we'd leave and never go back. So much for that I guess.
Yes, he still pays all the bills, I cover my student loans and other expenses here. I am living with my mom (yes, it sucks) but I had no where else to go. So I have no rent at the moment. I literally get sick at the thought of filing for divorce, but I almost feel like I have no other choice at this point. My cousin, who I mentioned I work for, has offered to take me to Nevada with his truck and trailer to get all of mine and my daughters things. Should that be done before or after filing for divorce, if in fact I can actually get myself to do it?
He told his dad he ****ed up royally and didn't know if he could still fix it, but then he tells me the exact opposite, such as "I'm done and I don't see what else to do than file for divorce". But he tells his family he wants it to work and misses his family. I have figured out right quick and in a hurry that he is a narcissist to the tee. I'm torn, it's not so easy to just walk away from a 12 year relationship and an almost 9 year marriage, especially with a 7 year old little girl who adores her father.