I left my house on Wed. night June 29th. I haven't set foot in the house since then. We had a fight - a bad one. It was made clear that I was no longer welcomed in my home.
I have only seen my children for about an hour's time in those 16 days. She is NOT keeping from me. My kids are mad at me because they witnessed our last fight. I am sure they blame me. Which is hilarious because it was my wife who wanted out, not me. This whole damn nightmare is due to fact that she has fallen out of love with me and wants to live her own life.
Should things get messy and they will, I know I will be made to be the bad guy because I want to officially and legally end our marriage . My wife wanted me to just sit by while she starts dating other people and I should just be glad to be in the house with the kids. It would be more convenient to co-parent that way. That was her idea. Can you imagine the nerve? Well, I couldn't hack the pain and humiliation of being husband to a "single" wife for whom her vows mean nothing any longer. It weren't for my kids I would have kicked out a long time ago. That takes us back to top. In the six months since she stated she wanted out, my life has been hell. The fights got worse and worse until that night.
They day after I left, I got every article of clothing I owned packed in two suitcases and some toiletries and dumped in my car while I was at work. She threw all my musical equipment in the trunk.
I have been staying at the home of the drummer of one my bands, largely without compensation and because of the kindness of this heart.
However, I cannot afford even this situation financially for very long, as I now have to eat on my own, and I have to gas in my car, etc. Unfortunately, the soon to be ex-wife (STBX henceforth) has stated that she can never live with me again. So what choice to I have? I want a divorce and to be done with her as soon as possible. However, she is cake eating. She doesn't mind having access to my money and being on my insurance, yada, yada, yada, but she has stopped holding up her end of the contract. No affection, no intimacy, I suspect possible unfaithfulness as well. She is emotionally and verbally abuse to me, and has even been physical a couple of times.
I just don't know how this is my problem. I pay the damn mortgage. She works and we need every penny she makes as well. But it's a few drops in the bucket compared to what I bring home.
The funny thing about of this is that the separation has actually allowed me room to actually begin to heal from the wounds of our 20 year marriage disintegrating. I don't fell like walking in front of bus anymore since she's not in my face every day to remind me of what I've lost.
I really need to try find legal aid, but I'm broke. I can enroll in my company's group legal plan in November and they can handle divorce, but I don't know if I can hold on till then.
BG919
I have only seen my children for about an hour's time in those 16 days. She is NOT keeping from me. My kids are mad at me because they witnessed our last fight. I am sure they blame me. Which is hilarious because it was my wife who wanted out, not me. This whole damn nightmare is due to fact that she has fallen out of love with me and wants to live her own life.
Should things get messy and they will, I know I will be made to be the bad guy because I want to officially and legally end our marriage . My wife wanted me to just sit by while she starts dating other people and I should just be glad to be in the house with the kids. It would be more convenient to co-parent that way. That was her idea. Can you imagine the nerve? Well, I couldn't hack the pain and humiliation of being husband to a "single" wife for whom her vows mean nothing any longer. It weren't for my kids I would have kicked out a long time ago. That takes us back to top. In the six months since she stated she wanted out, my life has been hell. The fights got worse and worse until that night.
They day after I left, I got every article of clothing I owned packed in two suitcases and some toiletries and dumped in my car while I was at work. She threw all my musical equipment in the trunk.
I have been staying at the home of the drummer of one my bands, largely without compensation and because of the kindness of this heart.
However, I cannot afford even this situation financially for very long, as I now have to eat on my own, and I have to gas in my car, etc. Unfortunately, the soon to be ex-wife (STBX henceforth) has stated that she can never live with me again. So what choice to I have? I want a divorce and to be done with her as soon as possible. However, she is cake eating. She doesn't mind having access to my money and being on my insurance, yada, yada, yada, but she has stopped holding up her end of the contract. No affection, no intimacy, I suspect possible unfaithfulness as well. She is emotionally and verbally abuse to me, and has even been physical a couple of times.
I just don't know how this is my problem. I pay the damn mortgage. She works and we need every penny she makes as well. But it's a few drops in the bucket compared to what I bring home.
The funny thing about of this is that the separation has actually allowed me room to actually begin to heal from the wounds of our 20 year marriage disintegrating. I don't fell like walking in front of bus anymore since she's not in my face every day to remind me of what I've lost.
I really need to try find legal aid, but I'm broke. I can enroll in my company's group legal plan in November and they can handle divorce, but I don't know if I can hold on till then.
BG919