Re: he says hes lost-help
I hope you do too. Its just a struggle when you start over analysing everything and trying to find answers in absolutely everything that happens. I mean, when he picks my kids up and drops them off, he winks at me. Is this just familiarity or is he feeling something. He sent me a text a few days after I kicked him out saying his phone was charging and to ring him if I need him. Could i have reconciled then if i would've just not been angry?
Tomorrow, I start getting it back on track. I get to a lawyer, discuss things. See if I can find a counsellor for my and my DD and get my son booked in with my friend for some holistic therapy as he is suffering and doesn't have good language skills.
After that, I will take it day by day. Ex isn't having the children until a week on Friday so i will decide then what to do. If I'm strong enough to actually go through with it. I am using my children as a way in but I know full well it cannot and will not escalate in front of them and it might push him into making a decision. Every person in the bar likes me (and they don't all like her) so it might make him see it all in a different light. It might not but at least I will be showing him indifference and that I'm moving on and may free me a bit when I see him again (because he isn't looking after himself and she won't look after him, I might look at him and wonder I was fussing so much)
Last edited by brainaches; 01-03-2017 at 10:16 PM.