Your hurting, hoping against hope that things will turn around. It sucks! Let me give you some advice. The more you beg, give puppy dog eyes, or say "I can't live without you", the more the sight of you will DISGUST her.
Please take this to heart "It's not about YOU!!" She has found someone that gives her lots of ego cookies. And once a woman decides she don't like you anymore, it's very hard to get that back. Sad part is, you could very well be a great guy, honest, loving, good provider. It doesn't matter. If she has someone feeding her ego cookies. and doesn't have the self control to cut them off and remain faithful to you, why do you want her in your life?
Pretend I just reached over the internet & laid about 500K on you. What would YOU do? Where would you live, what would you do for YOURSELF?
Life is short, why aren't you doing those things now?
Move her crap out, or, get out of the lease & let her deal with it.
Join a gym, start out lite, but work your way up lifting heavy.
Get a haircut & shave, or grow a beard if your normally clean shaven.
Buy a couple of new shirts.
Become the best YOU you can be.
If she wonders whats going on, tell her, your EA online was a deal breaker, and until you stop dodging the issue and admit the error of your ways, we are done.
She is trying to rugsweep the issue. Wishing it would go away, but it won't until you both hash it out.
This board has a lot of betrayed spouses that rugswept an issue, only to have it rear it's ugly head months/years later.
It's a sh!tty deal.
It hurts. Sorry man, ain't anything else to do but slog thru the emotions.
The upside, become the best you that you can. There are women out there that have the self control to cutoff anyone that is pushing the boundaries.
Read No More Mr. Nice Guy.
Read Married Man Sex Life Primer.
Read 5 Love Languages.
Not to save your current relationship, but to improve yourself.
Watch this video, it will help you see why you need to forgive your ex.
Let go of the bitterness your going to feel. Don't let it pollute your future life.
Life will get better, just gotta have faith.