I'm so sad and lonely right now, I just want to go to sleep and never worry abou this again but I have to keep fighting for my two children Posted via Mobile Device
I understand. I worry constantly about my kids and how all of this is effecting them and how can his dad choose to do this?
How do people do this to each other!?
Sleeping is good though, maybe you can wake up and feel that strength you felt earlier tonight.
PWD, do you have a support system? Just call someone, if you can. Let them know you just need----whatever: distraction, entertainment, someone to listen. If you can sleep, and it's appropriate (you won't be endangering anyone; you aren't sleeping all the time), then sleep--it can be restorative.
I know it is hard. There have been times in my life where I just lie down and repeat, "This too shall pass," over and over, until I fall asleep. A prayer or song you like can be recited over and over too, and if your thoughts break through, just start over again when you realize it. It's a form of meditation, really--controlling what you allow yourself to think about, and that is really "nothing" but the mindless recitation of the phrase or song.
Where in WI are you? I'm in SE Wi, outside Milwaukee.
I can't go home to clean it even if I wanted to (court order). So, I am staying w/friends and I clean their place when it gets so quiet all I do is think. I feel like I'm earning my keep too, trying to help out. I don't like this in limbo feeling, not knowing what's gonna happen. It's immobilizing. But I know that I have to be upright to fight. I try to keep telling myself that if I don't do anything then he will win hands down. I have to defend myself because no one else is gonna do it for me. They are my kids and I have to do everything I can do for them It's all about them. They need me in their lives and I have to make sure that happens. So, PWD, perk up, you can do this. You have to.
I'm so sad and lonely right now, I just want to go to sleep and never worry abou this again but I have to keep fighting for my two children Posted via Mobile Device
PWD I can see from an earlier post today that this dip has come after a high of when you were able to ignore your wife. This is the roller coaster we are all on.
I hope you are feeling a little better this morning.
These feelings seem to come out of the blue. I have been tearful this week, that I can cope with, but I woke up thus morning with anxiety pains in my chest. I haven't had them for weeks. Not so easy for me to deal with. But all part of this horrible ride.
Take care of yourself today
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i dont clean, i go to the driving range ( golf ) and hit the mofo balls as hard as i can.
had a bad nights sleep last night. going to MC who is really a thearapist today with my wife. I've got a reallybad feeling about today.
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so sad 
I can't do a lot since surgery and it is driving me nuts!
I clean like a mofo when I am sad, lonely or angry
