The only reason she doesn't want to try is because she is seeing someone else already.
She doesn't see the connection between you two because she found a connection with other person.
Right - the affair. Does it exist?
PA? Pretty sure no. EA? Pretty sure yes. She will never admit it, obviously. Inquiries about it are "He's just a friend" and "we only talk about work". And they do talk about work. Their jobs require them to be in contact during the day. They rarely communicate at night, but when they do, it is apparently about work. Can't confirm it, since she deletes all text messages, no matter who sends them, even me.
Am I too trusting? Probably.
She has a relationship with the (potential) EA's girlfriend. The two of them have a child together and we donated many item such as clothes and toys to them.
The thing is, I've asked my wife about her and the potential EA person. She says they fight a lot at work. But she also tells me that something we lack is "passion" in our relationship - something she had with her previous boyfriends - and part of that passion is the ups and downs that went on with them.
We rarely fought. I think neither one of us wanted to hurt the others feelings and I am a more calm and steady person by nature. Boring, if you were, which I think is part of her problem with me.
She said many times in the past that she would never cheat, and would be unforgiving if I ever cheated on her. Again, I do not suspect a PA.
EA? Well... Following advice and history from people on here, I've done some "snooping". I've checked the browsing history on her laptop. Last week, she had googled and read a bunch of articles on emotional affairs. I don't know if she thought I was having one, or she was conflicted about herself.
Me, I'm lonely. I have no one other than my wife here, and have lost track of all people I used to know in Canada. Does she feel guilt? Could be. She won't tell me. The MC asked her is she fantisized about anyone else, and she responded about a concept of someone.
Circumstancial evidence points to an EA. I know that. I feel that I can't compete. She's got the greener grass on the other side in her mind. All I can do now is prepare myself for a future without her.
Doesn't mean is doesn't hurt like hel... er, heck.