See? It was survivable. The road ahead will have its share of bumps and smooth stretches, but future weekends will continue to get better. Glad to know you're getting into your body, as this will help you avoid getting into your mind (I need to follow your example on this).
I am also beginning to wonder who the heck I am? Being single at 40 was definitely not part of the plan!
Oh, I hear you. The separation was a bit of an awakening in a sense, wasn't it? We're being forced to re-establish a connection with ourselves and figure out what make us tick.
Personally, I find I was an authentic individual living in a foggy, inauthentic marriage. I am trying to view the separation as an opportunity to lead a better, more authentic life, and eventually finding someone to share it with.
Guys like us are in training to be better husbands/boyfriends/partners in our next relationships. The best is yet to come.
Like Bandit, I strongly recommend the No More Mr. Nice Guy!
book. It's an eye-opener.