06-19-2012, 04:09 PM
Join Date: Jun 2012
| | Re: Angry and Sad Mixed Together
samyeagar- Thanks for the encouragement. I sometimes think I'm doing a little better (not great, mind you) and then WHAM, it hits me.
They've been together for nine months now. He admitted that he thinks they might be serious. Is this just an affair or am I being replaced for good? How long can this last?
When he moved into his new place ten days ago he invited me over to see it (at 11:30pm). I could tell he was feeling down, so of course like a desperate fool, I went. Shortly after my arrival, he told me he was sorry he called and that it wasn't fair to me.
While there, I noticed candles and bubble bath on his dresser (there is a large claw foot tub in the bathroom). I know it wasn't for me and I'm sure he wouldn't do that just for himself. This is something we never did together. Granted, we never had a tub big enough, but it hurt just the same. And it was almost like he was flaunting it. After nine months, they are still in the romance phase.
Sometimes, I imagine he is probably relieved that I don't contact him anymore. This way, he doesn't have to deal with the guilt. This is all too much. I know I shouldn't assume, but I can't seem to stop these ideas circling around in my head.