toolforgrowth

There is a lot of truth to this statement. I feel like a different person as a result of my ex leaving and her affair. Rather, I'm the person I used to be before I became domesticated. Strong, fun, outgoing, and alive.

I totally agree with you.
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boxhead201

I have to aim for indifference, but I still feel much anger towards my STBXW:

1. Thanks for disregarding my needs and feelings for the past 10-years.
2. Thanks for casting me aside while you took care of the children and your mother.
3. Thanks for creating a horrible living environment for me that caused me to move away from my children.
4. Thanks for checking out of the marriage because I would not take care of your mother.
5. Thanks for having an emotional affair with one of your mother's doctors.
6. Thanks for talking smack about me to all of your friends.
7. Thanks for using me and throwing me away like a piece of garbage.

Problem is: I told my STBXW this stuff, but I can no longer say it to her because it doesn't help. This is what I still feel though

UpnDown

Nothing, because as much as I want to, I know in the end I will feel it meant jack squat to her anyways and I would probably be more irritated about that over venting.

Orpheus

Goodnight Sweet Girl,

I wish we had been less broken.

I search for you under moonlight in a sea of endless sheets. And from our bed there is nothing to shelter me from the storm inside my head. As the days rage on even your memories want to divorce me. I no longer recall the tug of your lips upon mine; the way you would laugh with abandon; or the insecure preening before we'd leave for a date.

In its place is another woman. One who looks like you and answers to your name. But a woman I'll never know.

Our marriage. Vessel lost. No survivors found.

kruppmart

I haven't talk to her since D-Day(I wasn't able due to a CPO), and I never will. She always told me that I will have a hard time missing her ... I will proof the opposite. I give a sh*t what will happen to her ... I told her before I never look back in my live, and that is what is going to happen.

She recently informed a friend of ours that she has to put our dog to sleep ... I told him not to respond because I don't care (I care for the dog, but not for her feelings). I think ingnoring her and everything around her (family, her children) is the best for my healing.

I am trying to get my life to the best as it can get ... that will hurt her the most while she will going downhill.

lulubelle

i love reading everyone's vents and seeing the different stages everybody is in this process. those who are indifferent or even at peace or grateful, i hope to be there someday. i'm ok right now with being angry and still loving him. just like the depressed desparate stage, i know this too will pass.

boxhead201

When will it pass? It is killing me !!!!

lulubelle

i wish i knew! until that day comes, i am ok mentally stabbing the voodoo doll of him that is in my head!

MainStreetExile

Dear L,

When all is said and done, I will never choose not to love you.

Lordhavok

your a stupid inbred hillbilly wh#re
you've taken more from me than money or anything can replace
everytime I look at you I want to rip your throat out

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I can't believe how cruel, life is. Emotional blackmail, makes me sick, oh so sick.

jw1966

i would say i love kid rock. half your age and twice as hot! lol so back to the curb where i found you. being single in so cal at 45 best shape in years. i got a lot to choose from and i,m doing great. ive told her look in the mirror sooner or later you,ll see the piece of sheeiite looking back. ha ha ha

Tainted Halo

Dear stbxh,

Though the future is unknown for us at the moment I still consider you my close friend regardless what we both did. You have always been a good father and supporter and I Thank you for continuing to support me while I get back on my feet during our separation.

Bitter+Sweet

[QUOTE=Awakening2012;900508]Dear H -

I am disappointed that you loved me enough to marry me, and I am disappointed that you left me and broke my heart. I am sad that the man who was so sure we were soul mates does not want to try harder to save the marriage, and cares so little for upholding our our marriage vows. I know that I hurt you, but am sick and tired of your abandonment rejection, distancing and indecision. I am doing my best to make amends, forgive myself, and carry on with building a happier, healthier life.


It's amazing how total strangers can share some of the same sentiments with their marriages. I feel the same way!

MyselfAgain

This just made me cry.
Despite being the garbage can of my stbxh's broken promises, I may always love him deep down. Wish it weren't so.
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UpnDown

You aren't alone in that department MA.