07-12-2012, 01:33 AM
Join Date: Dec 2011
| | separating...
I posted long ago about my story. I was really hurting when I did and the response I got drove me off for a great while. I have revisited that thread a lot over the last several months. It was just me getting it off my chest because I didn't have many folks around to share it with. I know the situation was less than perfect and if I had it to do again it would go much differently. It is what it is.
Small summary: Together 28 married 21, two boys 17 & 15, wife had EA. We went to MC and IC and at the beginning she said that part of her wanted to work things out so I thought there was some hope. It turns out I put all the effort into making things better and I do believe that she had already come to a decision and just didn't want to deal with the consequences of that decision.
It has come to the point where we have decided to separate. I am still in the house, but will start looking at apartments in August. It has taken me several months, but I am starting to come to terms with where this is going. Those feelings are still with me, it just seems that I can control them more lately if that makes any sense. I have a buddy at work that is also going through this and we have been talking, which has helped me a lot, too.
I guess I have just come to the point where I have distanced myself from her as much as possible. The indifference that I was getting from her before I decided to distance myself was very frustrating for me. We have been together since 10th grade and she has pretty much been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. We went through elementary school,jr/sr high school, and college together. She has been a large part of my life and that void that will be there when she is gone will be difficult.