07-27-2012, 12:54 PM
Join Date: Feb 2012
| | Lonely, frightened and upset
I was on this site a few months ago, when my wife and I first separated. We reconciled, and things were going well for a while, but it's fallen apart again. Yesterday I told her, definitively, that I don't want this marriage to continue.
I thought this would lift a weight off my shoulders, but if anything, it's gotten worse, and this afternoon at the office I completely broke down. Worst of all if the total, crushing GUILT I feel about it. I think I've put up with enough and done enough to make it work, but we have two little boys, and now I'm second-guessing everything. I fear I'm going to be sucked back into a marriage that just wasn't working.
Worst of all, I moved to my wife's hometown when we got married - she said she'd never move to my home, which should have been a warning - and now I'm up here with all my family living 1,500km away, and seemingly no one I can confide in.
Can someone please tell me this will get better with time? I just wish there was an easy answer, but I know there isn't one.
(And, yes, we tried counselling. She didn't want to continue.)