I have read all of your threads up until now. CANCEL YOUR TRIP.
- You're wasting your time.
- You're wasting your money.
- You're annoying your STBXH and driving him further away from you.
- You're putting yourself through an emotional wringer.
- Your marriage is OVER because your STBXH says it is.
You may not LIKE it, you may not AGREE with it, but your marriage is OVER. DONE. FINISHED.
It takes TWO people to make a marriage work, and your STBXH doesn't want to make it work. He's tired of trying to make it work.
It only takes ONE person to decide the marriage is over. And HE has decided it. SO IT'S OVER.
I am NOT saying these things to be MEAN, but to get you to realize the futility of trying to chase him and tell him you're sorry, and you've changed, and you were wrong.
Just from reading your posts, you appear VERY needy, VERY clingy, VERY pushy....these are NOT going to be seen by your husband (or any man or any person) as attractive qualities in a spouse or a friend.
ACCEPT the inevitable. Your marriage is over. It is.
NOW, what is left to do is to FIX YOURSELF so you're no longer someone who argues continually, refuses to compromise, demands her way, acts immaturely...whatever the problems were in your first marriage. FIX THEM. Then you will be in a position to move on with the rest of your life wherein you can find healthy, happy, adult relationships that will be fulfilling for both YOU and the other person.