11-16-2009, 03:11 PM
Join Date: Oct 2009
| | Re: I think I belong here now
Originally Posted by mls31
And the sick and twisted thing is that I feel bad that he may be pissed off at me. Why I am worried about it? This is not my problem. Yet, part of me still doesn't want to hurt him and have him angry with me. Totally screwy!!
When I was packing, I threw away all of the cards and letters he sent to me over our relationship. I was so angry. Maybe I should've kept them? Those memories are gone... in more ways than one. Should I have kept them?
Wow. That first paragraph describes me to the t also. When we started talking again right after my daughter was born I remember some stuff that he said didn't sit well with me. Like the rational part of me was saying he hasn't really changed listen to the way he is talking...We were texting all the time and whenever he texted me and I said I was out he texted back saying I better not be with any males, drinking, etc etc. And I would do my best, bend over backwards, just so I wouldn't piss him off, afraid that I would lose him again. Your right it is screwy.
As far as the cards. I wouldn't have kept them only because everything right now for me would be to bittersweet and then I would find myself stuck in memory lane...and then I would be tempting to call him.